Moving forward trusting God

I have obviously taken a longer leave of absence than I originally expected from blogging. I started this blog to share our successes as parents, but life happened and I am not sure what direction this blog may take moving forward.

As many of you know, our family went through a major life change that began as a career change moving us halfway across the country. It was exciting, scary, and all and all, a move that totally disrupted the life that we knew. It had more changes than we expected and in addition to learning to live in a new place, adjusting to a new career position, meeting new people, and gaining an understanding of the mid-western culture, we have found ourselves learning to live as a family of three instead of our more larger family of seven. I honestly do not know what has been more difficult to handle, the relocation halfway across the country or watching our family go through very unexpected changes. 

In a matter of 13 months, all of our adult children have moved out to take on the role of living on their own. Talk about major adjustments!!! This was something I personally always looked forward to as achievements for our family as a whole, but many unexpected things happened that changed the plans we had set in place for those moments. What I have realized, through it all, is that sometimes the lifelong plans we have for our children are not necessarily the plans that God has for our children. Letting go and letting God has been the advice I have generously provided to others going through their storms of life, but it is one of the most difficult things I have found to do myself. I openly admit I am still struggling with doing it. My experience has proven to me that "Letting Go and Letting God" is not as easy as it sounds. It requires a huge leap of faith... one that brings on all kinds of emotions such as fear, insecurity, uncertainty, disappointment, frustration, and anger. 

I am not ready to provide intimate details of the emotions we have experienced, because the wounds are fresh and I want to write about those emotions when I am in a place of content, not floating back and forth between the above listed emotions. But I do want to write that the journey has helped me come to realize God's plan may be different from ours as parents. For months I was fighting hard and pushing our children to stay on the plan we, all together as a family, designed for their futures. But I have come to realize, it isn't about our plan. It is about God's plan. I would not be so bold to say that I have completely relinquished it all Him, letting go and letting God... but I am working on it. 

Isaiah 55:9 says, "For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts". 

Please pray for our family. My belief in the ultimate powers of Jesus tell me the best is yet to come and I am trusting that!

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